Zoloft Prozac Risperidone Lexapro Xanax Lithium Lamictal None lol who needs meds Zyprexa Pristique Remeron Paxil Trazadone
Fifteen. Fifteen drugs in countless combinations over fifteen years. My liver and kidneys are straight up not having a good time. My life expectancy has dropped nine years because of it. It’s been a long and difficult journey.
A few times I’ve been well. Once for three entire years. No episodes; not a single symptom. If you passed me on the street you’d think I was some peasant neurotypical. You wouldn’t know my beautiful bipolar mind was just locked away in a lithium pill bottle and all you’d have to do is push down and turn to let it out.
But, I was triggered again. The meds no longer worked. Or I was so well I forgot it was the meds and stopped taking them. Or I couldn’t afford them. New doctor. New diagnosis. Whatever it was, the meds changed over and over and they likely will again.
But right now they’re mostly working. I’m not symptom free but I have some stability. If you ask me, every pill I took to get me here has been worth it.
In conclusion: I suck at ending posts.